Wednesday, March 4, 2020

HOLDING A GRUDGE?


Despite your best efforts, it's impossible not to be hurt or disappointed, at some point in our life, by loved ones or societal norms we fail to see eye to eye on.  Often the most challenging aspect of getting hurt is letting go of any lingering resentment after we forgive the other.  Sometimes, we may find that we're holding a grudge — even if we're doing so unintentionally.

Knowing ourselves, in light of scripture, might give us a clue that we're holding a grudge, even if we don't think we are, and can help us figure out a way to move forward.

When we're holding a grudge, all sorts of things can cause us to get frustrated.  We can find ourselves taking advantage of any opportunity to let our voice to be heard, sometimes inappropriately.  Meaning, sometimes we might get upset over things that really aren't related to what we're actually upset about.[1]

The author of the Book of Jonah insists revealing on Jonah’s dislike of the Ninevites and his refusal to obey God for fear that the Ninevites might be more receptive to God’s message and call to repentance than his own people.  Jonah did his best to avoid delivering God’s message.  The consequence for his disobedience was a God sized timeout, in the belly of a whale.  God always wins.  We have a God of second chances.  He gives Jonah a second chance and He continually offers us second chances.  Jonah’s behavior gives us a real glimpse of our own weaknesses, Jonah didn’t want to give the people of Nineveh a second chance—even though God had given him one.  In this light, I had to ask myself, how am I at giving second chances.  How are you doing on giving others a second chance?

We all have our blind spots: We develop the habit of excusing our own mistakes and struggles, yet we often fall short of doing the same for someone else.  Mercy is the issue.  We struggle to follow in the Master’s example.  Mercy and compassion require a forgiving heart that lets go of resentment, that lets go of the lingering grudge.  Like Jonah, we are challenged to see beyond the sometimes-petty mistakes that offend us.  Taking a step back and reflecting on the big picture, recognizes our hurt is real and our struggle to get beyond it.  Could it be that God is doing something good when we endure these difficulties?  

Today’s Gospel helps us realize that Jesus expects us to pay attention to the light within us.  This light strengthens our resolve to be merciful and faithful as we attempt to live the Gospel values of forgiveness and mercy.  Being a light-bearer means taking that hard look ourselves, especially when we hold tight to an old grudge.[2]


[1] Insider “8 signs you're holding a grudge even if you don't think you are” by Lauren Schumacker. Posted April 14, 2019.
[2] Weekday HomilyHelps Homily Suggestion by Jeanne Hunt.

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